Tick Tock TICK!

Less than 3 days left...


A lot of things to be settled...


Most of the things checked!...



The only thing...




Why don't I feel excited?



Not in the mood..Sad..



Maybe there are so much worries..they just overrule the excitement..



Dear Allah,
Please make everything smooth for both of us..please make the events turn out good for the rest of us..please please please..

I make du'a a lot *tears*



*Guess not everybody has the same excitement.. T_T*

Bangsar Shopping Center...

A new place to hang out for my siblings and I..hahahha~  (kami jakun..) weve never been to bangsar shopping center before and I have a perception that it was meant for rich people..since I believe rich people stay in Bangsar..hehehehe (I had to laugh to myself as how skeptical I was..) So, last Sunday we went there to find chocolates for my hantaran (gifts for the groom)..we went to the wrong place at first - Bangsar Village..thought it was the same and we just got to know about it when we asked the lady at Royal Doulton's shop...the lady was so nice to attend to us..but it was an experience as we found a nice place for our mom to hang out..and my older sister too..LOL..

We stayed there for a while and had some coffee first..just to kill the time..it's RM3.30/hour..we should kill some time first,no? or the fee we paid for one hour will be wasted..hehehe..

Bangsar Village was so close to Bangsar Shopping Center..maybe 5-10 mins away..but we loved the city so much..it was quite nice..the buildings..the trees-the scenery specifically...hehe..while we were at BSC, we went to the shop and bought the chocolates weve been searched for - patchi..I must give some credits to the promoter there..he was REALLY nice..he attended to us very patiently..answered to every questions we had..and he always give his friendly smile..we had so much fun there..we'd definitely go there to buy chocolates for other occasions in the future (say my bro's wedding..or as gifts to friends..) and you guys should too..the chocolates were nice so as the promoter..a good combination,right? perfect!

once the mission has accomplished..we had our lunch at the Burp..hehe..have u burp today? and it has promo for nasi kandar..since we were all very hungry, we chose nasi kandar for each of us..burp..alhamdulillah..hehehe..then we went to the VERY nice prayer room..i can say the nicest prayer room ive been so far..considering the cleanliness and it was so comfortable to perform our prayer there..so i had some pictures of the prayer room..hehehe..later we went to the kitchen shop close to the prayer room and i just fall in love with the shop on the spot!it has attractive kitchen appliances..hahaha..you see..i used word 'attractive' to show how I was so much attracted to the shop..which means i'd definitely definitely go there if i'd the chance to spend my time at BSC again..well..i guess this is for sure..hehehe..as we already decided that this will be our place for shopping in the future..other than one utama..hehe..but the downside was the parking rate there was damn expensive (compared to 1Utama)..erkkkk~~ it's RM2/hour.. T_T nangis banyakkkkk...apart from that, everything was good..the shops..the leisure we had - for the nice design.. :)

Alhamdulillah..it was so great to spend time with my siblings (and a cousin..easier to consider her as a sibling too as we were quite close..hehehe..)

enjoy the pics!

lovely rack for Qurans

I asked my sister to snap some pictures of this prayer room while I performed my prayer and this is one of the pics..yeap..this is soooo her..she loves to take picsss of herself so much!! hahaha..I have another one but I dont plan to upload it here..one pic is enough for her..haha..anyway, shes the one standing and the other one is suhaila-my cousin..

rack for telekungs..nice,huh?

the place to take ablution..

the prayer hall..

there was nice place next to the prayer rooms..can I call it a waiting place?hehe

my older sister was now added in the shot..

from different angle..hehe

this is the prayer room for man..loved it!

place for roller-blading and skate-boarding (do such terms exist anyway?)..it's expensive..RM28 for weekends..and RM22 for weekdays..

My siblings.. :)

*Perut kenyang..suka hati XD*

Being left behind.. T_T

How do I start?..hurmm..hurm..hurm..

Knowing that your ex-bf's progress exceeded yours..does that make you sad? I mean in a jealousy way..if it does, was it actually a bad thing? was it normal for human being? those were some of the questionsss that filled up my mind when it happened..

I am building up a family (soon)..I am someone who like to think every second..my brain..never stopped working..actually thats how i perceived it as I constantly have a dream in my sleep EVERYDAY..I ouldnt count my sleep without a dream per year..thats how much I dream every night..so i thought it's just that my brain did not want to stop working..but I am ok with that..having that, I always have plans on my mind..for the next day routine or even next few years ahead..and I organized it pretty nice in my brain (hopefully the targets can be achieved as time passed by)..so, building a family needs a lot of money - thats common sense,no? no need calculations although I did calculate for that..haha..

Since I have been organizing my life so much so I didnt really keep track of any other people's progress except ones who are close to me..then later I just got to know that my ex has already expanding..in terms of materials to be exact..he will get marry soon and he also managed to buy a car-not a cheap one though..and that..really surprised me!! I thought of 'how in the world that he managed to do that as I myself knew very well I will not yet be able to do that at the moment..? and the fact that I started to work earlier than him! Oh no!! it's really hard for me to digest it..I have been questioned myself A LOT..did i take a wrong path? (this happened previously-when I was sooo down..I am in a pharmaceutical industry and I assumed it is not yet really grow in malaysia..so the business is pretty slow..) am i moving too slow? was it my fault? was it my co's fault? I couldnt answer those questions..and I was quite down..

What did I do when I was so down? again..I think a lot..haha..now that increased more burden to my brain..sorry brain for making you work non stop.. -__-""" then I found an answer to myself..it's just that I forgot my first ever goal when I decided to take this path - to make contributions to the ummah in any way, be it the ilm (knowledge in arabic term), the skills, anything..once I realized that, I instantly became calm and thought thats ok for me...even though I knew I was left behind..

and that's my story... :)

moral of the story..whenever we felt that we were left behind specially in terms of monetary - that's what people being chasing the most nowadays..why dont we try to take a deep breath..and look back..and dig the purpose of life we have set back then (the time when we were not bias with life and being naive)..then we will be able to stay calm and work more to achieve the goals..and stop comparing ourselves to others..remember, different people have different goals, right?

So, SMILE AND MOVE FORWARD.. :))))

*Money and wealth are not every thing..but IMAN is*

Missing yOu~

Today is the final day of Ramadhan and it marks my first month of not having a date with him..Alhamdulillah..Hope this will continue until our nikah day..InsyaAllah..

True..I have requested (to him) that we should not meet (unless it is really important and with a condition that there must be someone else too i.e my family members) until our nikah day..because I want to get the feeling of excitement in becoming someone's wife..and I want to get to miss him a lot so that I would get totally excited on the nikah day to be able to see him in person..It's hard to describe the feeling but I can feel that this will totally fun!! Few weeks ago, his family came to discuss about the wedding with my family and he tagged along..during the discussion, my mom called me to join the discussion..so I sat in front of him..I was quite amazed of how shy I was at that time and I was really nervous..I couldnt even look at him but I knew he was looking at me..and that made me feel more embarrass..hahahaha~ The feeling is like I have never met him and it's like we were just started to get to know each other..and you know, the best feeling when we were in love is at the beginning, right? because every day is filled with excitement as we waited for our love progress day by day,no? at least, thats how I felt..hahaha~

Later that night, he called and I asked him why he was looking at me (whenever he got the chance ;P)..and I asked him 'do you miss me?' and of course he did! hahaha! and that was like..whoaaa~ this is one kind of excitement I have been looking for..sounds adventurous for me..

So, because of that..I am pretty sure I want to proceed with my plan..and I am totally looking forward to our daily progress..It's been ups and downs..definitely..but still..I liked all of them~

Yesterday, he told me he was sick..I could hear from his voice and I could tell he was on high fever..I was quite worried actually..and his fever was not yet down as of now..you know man..they just too lazy to handle themselves when they are sick..so he didnt lsiten to every single request I asked him to do so that his fever got down quickly..ahhh!! I am so worried right now..

hopefully, he gets better soon..




*Rindu bertaut lagi*

Wedding Invitation

Friday and I am at the office with almost all people are on leave..hahaha..It's pretty quiet here..I at first thought of doing some undone work..but later I figured out that the mood was no longer there (this is not a good attitude anyway..haha) so I want to do something light and leisure..and one thing came to my mind - list out people whom I want to invite to my wedding!! yeay~~ 

Talking bout wedding invitation..I have been having a dilemma of whom I should invite..I have attended 5 schools - from primary school until university..and I have different friends that I was quite close back then..but of all schools, I have only few friends who were really close to me, and few who I was not sure how close we were (funny,huh?) and that give me dilemma as I have to spare some cards for my family too..obviously they wanted to invite their friends too, no? at first, I planned to invite my close friends only and some office mates..but then I felt guilty towards the others as they invited me to their weddings of which I did not attend to some of their weddings (sorry..I was having a bad time and I didnt wish to meet any people specially from our school)..

After taking bout 6 months thinking (that was pretty long period, huh??hahaha!), I decided to invite my close friends only, office mates and some other friends..I still feel guilty but I thought to myself..this is my day and I really wanted to celebrate with people whom I loved so much..who has never ever betrayed me or stabbed me at the back..I want to share the moment with them..and I can only afford this much of amount..huhu..

I guess thats all for now ----------> let's start working~~!! ;D



*People who make you closer to Allah - they are true friends*

Ramadhan almost comes to an end

I guess only 3 days left..I am not sure about any improvements made this year as compared to last year..but I am definitely not satisfied with my ramadhan this year..I can say this ramadhan is more of tears to me..not only due to sadness, but other things too..I cried more this year compared to last year for all reasons that I dont feel like sharing them all here in details..Even though I should have not say this, I hope I did more ibadah this year.. T_T Hopefully I can meet the ramadhan again next year..InsyaAllah..I was only left with three days and I am going to make full of it..

The-almost-end of ramadhan made me just realize that my wedding is getting closer and closer..honestly speaking, I dont have any specific feeling for this..not happy neither excited..It's soooo flat..hahahhaa..I am heartless, maybe? thats what my friend told me..I guess it's not that I dont have feelings but I just dont have time to figure out my feelings towards it..Most of my time was used to spend with my family..to settle all the important things bout the wedding..to worry about my next semester that will start soon..to reflect myself during this ramadhan month for all the tears shed..yes..that were just part of it..soon, I just found out it is almost at the end of ramadhan..then comes raya..then national day on 31st, then malaysia day on 16th then finally my wedding that will come less than a month after that..wow..time flies real fasttt.. O_O

..... (lost my words ;P)

*The only thing that is never sufficient for man - TIME*

Alhamdulillah...

During my childhood days..teachers always told us to say subhanallah when we see nice things/creations of Allah..alhamdulillah whenever we get something or to show our thankful to Allah..*this is simply mumbling*

Now let's get to the point..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..That was the only word appeared on my mind when the situation turns out just perfect for me..Alhamdulillah..

Why?

It began when I was so worried bout my financial flow for this month due to insufficient fund cause of previous month's spending and I totally forgot about some of the payments that I need to settle for this month..So, getting through my monthly budget..I was so frustrated and worried as I have owed some amount of money from my sister..and I only have an extra amount of money that I already kept it to buy a Quran that I have been wanting for some times..

However, after went to the same shop for three times and the owner was never there..I was more frustrated as I thought I might not destine for this Quran..at first I was not sure whether to pay the money I have allocated for the Quran to my sister or try to look for the Quran once again..I was in dilemma then..

Later I decided I really need to get the Quran and use the money for the Quran since I already put my intention (niat) to use the money for the Quran plus since I maximized my budget for the Quran, I knew I will have some remainder so I could use it to partially pay my sister and I thought I should have tried to find other money to fully pay my sister and I decided to put that aside first and get the Quran during today's lunch hour..

When the clock ticked at 12.30pm..I rushed to the shop to get the Quran in the hope that the owner was there..yes..she was there..BUT the quran is OUT OF STOCK!..again..I was really frustrated and I really thought that I was not meant to buy the quran..yes..I was definitely sad..While walking to my car, I still thought that I could use the money to pay my sister but I knew that deep inside I still wanted the Quran so badly then I just remembered that there was a book store close to the shop..so again I rushed there too (yeap..need to rush here and there so that I wouldnt exceed the lunch hour duration given that was only 30 minutes..)..once I reached there I was happy to see there were some stocks of the Quran..and it was just in front of the counter..yes..that was just nice for me..Checking up the price..It was the same price..Alhamdulillah..so I took the Quran and went to the counter..and the lady asked me whether I have the book store's privilege card and yes I do..(I previously was not aware of the privilege of having the card..) and guess what..the price was discounted!!Alhamdulillah..due to that, I have just enough money to pay my sister too..and yeah..I was so happy and thankful to Allah..It was not a huge amount of money but having that to help me pay the money I have owed from someone..was really a relief for me..Syukran Ya Allah..

This simple and small situation made me realize of how perfect and nice Allah has planned for us..I was really really thankful and now I can breath in relief since I managed to get the Quran that I have been saved for and I managed to pay (in full amount) my sister at the same time..

I also learned that Allah has always has the power to give rizq to anyone he wanted no matter how small it is..

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..


*Rizq is everywhere..Work for it..and Make Du'a..It will come whenever you didn't expect it..*