S.L.E.E.P.Y *_*

huwarghhhhh~~ ngantoknyeeee...operation starts at 330pm..rs ngantuk nk tdo..tp rs nk bukak blog jugak..make bukak blog dlu lah..hahahhaampeh~ td g umah uncle..sbb sepupu br bersalin..so melawat baby la..weee~ pastu time visit tu sembang2 kat meje mkn sambil mkn cucur..hee..

pastu my uncle ni cite la psl anak sulung die yg nk benti keje n nk start bisnes..tp die cm sedih n kecewe sgt anak die nk benti keje..hurmm..fhm2 np..yela dh tue2 mcm tu..mgkn ade perasaan nk anak pk seniri or jd independent sket..alih2..mcm2 kerenah plak..then my sis ckp ngn uncle aku tu..bia je la die nk buat bisnes..klo jd pape,he can learn..n nk xnk kene cr jln nk survive..then my uncle replied..ye la..klo jd pape..sp yg saket paler nnt nk pk..nk tanggung..?? btol jugak ckp uncle aku tu..die kecewe sbb alasan sepupu aku nk benti..sbb job tu xkne ngn interest die..die xminat..xkne ngn field die..hurmmmm..then uncle aku tu pn complain sket..'org susah nk cr keje..nk msk company..die snang2 je nk resign..'

yela..btol la tu..teringt pesan2 trainer time training before dpt keje dlu..mmg susah nk dpt keje yg kne ngn interest ni..awal2 bekerje, nk xnk mmg kne susah2 dlu..sbb kt bkn expert..experience pn xde..bile dh byk experience..byk kmpl skill..time tu la br bole demand..tp exp tu paling min pn 5 taun la br cantekkk..btol la tu..yg penting kne secure job dlu..klo xsuke..nk benti pn..kne ade back up..nk buat bisnes pn..make sure ade back up plan in case bisnes xmenjd..huhu..ntah la..aku pn xtau bisnes sgt..mmg risky nk wat bisnes..thats y aku rs kne ade back up plan..at least ade saving dlu ke..klo simply buat bisnes pkai duit saving..in case bisnes xjd..caneee??hurm..sian plak tgk uncle aku tu..muke kerut2 mesti die susah ati..xpe2..moge2 die dpt bersbr..mn tau tu mmg jln terbaek utk anak die ke..doa2 je la..


*life is a gamble*

malaysian drivers attitude.. T T

hurm..td blk keje kol 630pm..byk gk kete..tp mmg time2 tu byk kete..so ari2 pn blk byk kete..hahahaha! tp otw blk ternmpk la pangai2 buruk malaysian drivers..yeap..mmg dh lame rs drivers kat msia xbersopan santun di jln raye..tp ari ni bertmbh ters n menyampah pn ade..blk keje tu..2 kali terserempak ngn drivers yg xsbr..klo jmpe dpn2 ni..rs nk ketuk je paler yg xreti bersbr tu..perghhh!! kt yg tgk ni pn menyirap sikit..cenggini..mule kat roundabout..ade 1 kete ni..mgkn xberape reti nk nyelit msk roundabout tu..tp mmg susah sket nk msk..sbb byk kete..pastu tbe2 satu kete kat blakang die..cpt2 potong kete tu n berie msk roundabout..aku yg dekat2 situ terkejut sket..tbe2 ade kete kua..perghh!! pns je drh mudeku ni..geram!! dlm ati ckp.."aduhhh..xle sbr ke..sian la kete tu nk lintas..seb baek bkn aku..klo x,mau luruh jantung tbe2 ade kete msk dr belakang..ngok tol!" then nk dekat sp umah tu..ade simpang 3..tgh beratur nk msk simpang..pastu nmpk plak ade satu kete buat pangai xsbr mcm kete td tu msk simpang..die join skali msk ngn kete depan die..so double kete msk skaligus..seb baek kete yg depan sekali tu xpress ke ape..die nk kedepan sket pn tros brake..tp due2 kete dh rapat je..sket lg mmg boom!! langgo leeee jawabnye..aku yg tgh beratur kat blakang ni..menyirap skali lg.."ape psl la ari ni ramai je org2 xsabo..bkn nye nk lame mane pn beratur..drpd buat mende2 bhy tu..sesie je klo accident.."

serius menyampah ngn drivers yg ade attitude mcm tu..ape diorg ingt diorg tu tere sgt ke bwk kete nk buat2 mcm tu???saba2 la sket..umah ke..destinasi tu..xkemn..dok kat situ jugak..cpt ke lmbt ke..sampai jugak..xdela esk pg tu br sp..yg nk gopoh2 tu np..xpk ke..wat mcm tu..driver laen akan terkejut..aduhhh..tlglahhhh pkai otak sket bile bwk kete..aku pn bkn pemandu berhemah mn..tp xla wat onar kat org mcm tu..xslh pn mengalah bg org lps dlu..drpd nnt kt yg jd cause accident..pastu dh accident mule la nk blame org laen..pdhal dh terang2 seniri salah..amende laaaaaa...dh pndai bwk kete sket..dh xingt dh precaution yg blaja time amek lesen dlu.. *sigh*

hurm..ni cite laen plak..dlu aku pnah ade mskkn entry psl housemates aku yg bengong dlu..perghh! aku rs die mmg plek laaaaa~!! aku pn dh xingt ape aku ngomel2 psl diorg kat sini..tp slh sorg yg aku ckp nk msk master bedroom utk share ngn org laen sbb nk krgkn sewe tu..aku nk cte psl die la ni..bole x ari tu berie ckp nk master bedroom tu sbb nk share ngn org..so die bole krgkn sewe die..aku mmg dh xhadap dh master bedroom tu lps crisis ari tu..mls la..so org2 yg die ajak share tu xjd dok situ..diorg xjd msk umah..aku xheran pn mule2..pastu tbe2 lg sorg housemate ckp kat aku..minah tu nk pndh msk master bedroom gk..then dak ni ckp kat die..bole je..tp kne byr lebih la..pastu die ckp xpe je..BOLE PULAK?????? amende ko merepek ni!! ari tu cm berie nk reduce sewe..alih2 bole pulak dok sorg master bedroom tu siap bole byr lebih lg?? ko ni gilo ko??tbe2 naek gaji ke?? arghhh!! sesgghnye aku mmg menyampah ngn ko k!!! byk tol topeng ko pkai..tp xdela isu besa sgt kat aku snanye..sbb sejak ari tu aku mmg xhadap r rumah tu termsk diorg tu..dh menyampah dh..mmg mcm aku ckpla..aku xamek port psl diorg n umah tu lg dh..hishhh!! ade gk org plek mcm tu..xfhm aku..split personality kot..hihi


*people are just unpredictable and sometimes are just annoying T T*

when u gained something..be prepared to lose something..

hurm..the title reminds me of my chemistry subject during secondary school..or matriks ek?lpe..if im not mistaken, thermodynamic balancing ke?or atomic? dh xingt dh..tp the principle is so great!yeah..it applies everywhere..ur work..study..or secare general la kat mn2! hahaha~

i was on fb just now..n read my frens' comments..diorg claimed i was so good to be able to be an engineer..to be able to apply things that we studied during the university days before..cuz not all of us were able to secure a job related to our studies..some of em said 'hebatla nana..' but..

thinking bout it again..bersyukur sgt dpt secure job yg related ngn minat n field seniri..tp diorg terlpe..the balancing principle..u get something..u lose something..huhu~ so far..lps dh keje setaun..i missed quite a lot of things..i didnt hv time to keep in touch with my frens..i even forgot their birthdays..working in somewhat fast-pace-required place..i wasnt able to keep track on dates..i kept on working only to realize that 2 weeks were already passed..however, it's not like i was bz all the time..but the free times i had were not enough to get updates on my family n frens..yg sedihnye..aku dh krg spend ms ngn adek2 aku..sedar2,one of em dh settle ngn spm trial xms..xsempat nk ajar die btol2..even pnah skali i promised her i'd go home to support her since shes having add math paper the next day..tp aku blk umah..dh mlm..n tersgt pnat..sempat tgk2 die kejap..dh kne prepare utk g keje esk..rs ralat sket..tp seb baek die ok..

kdg2..rs letih keje mcm ni..tp mcm addicted..byk kali try cr keje br..tp xpnah seriously applied for other jobs..sbb tiap2 kali cr keje br..hati rs berat je nk tuka keje..syg sgt keje ni..cume utk ms dpn bile dh berkeluarge..mgkn terpkse sacrifice..sbb xnk ilang ms utk family..sbb i believe..atr minat n mase utk yg tersyg..ms tu lg penting..sbb skali ilang ms tu..kt xkn pnah dpt blk..this is what my heart tells me for the moment..i might change..but hopefully i will hold on to this when it requires me to..


*equilibrium principle: gain something = lose something*

syg org yg syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt syg..

been a while xcte kat sini..bz ngn production..huhu~

yeap..true...org slalu ckp...klo nk berpsgan..biarlah bersm ngn org yg btol2 syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt btol2 syg..specially pmpn la..knape?sbb perasaan terhegeh2 tu sgt menyakitkn n rs cm pathetic giler..rs sdh sgtttttt..susah nye nk pujuk diri n bg die dgr n sedar..org tu xnk sgt pn kat die..die je yg terhegeh2..

pdhal org tu xde pape sgt..xde pape yg bole bg kat die..tp np die syg sgt..np die syg sgt kat org tu..bkn die xle jd independent..kdg2..rs jeles tgk org2 yg bhgie berpsgn..terdetik..seronoknye ek jmpe ngn soulmate kt..yg buat kt rs secure..buat kt rs di appreciate..

kdg2..terpk jugak..when it comes to love..i have to go through the hard way..or is it just me..who likes to choose the hard way..?before this..i prayed hard i wont fall for anybody..but at last i fall for him..not knowing he wudnt really appreciate me in the future..sdhnye rs..or..mgkn aku seniri yg xreti appreciate org..sbb tu org xappreciate aku..or mgkn aku xdpt terime baek buruk org?mgkn aku nkkn yg perfect?

aku rs x..ckpla klo die buat aku rs secure..n appreciate aku seadenye..

nk sgt lpskn die..tp syg sgt kat die..xfhm..xfhm...n sdh sgt..



*why does love hurts so much?*

Never trust people

Yeap..never trust people..cuz at anytime they will break it..pufff..juz like that..damn it!

Ari ni i moody n mrh gile! this is because of my stupid housemates! arghhh!! geram sgt2! cte nye cemni..currently we all ade 4 org..termsk myself..so ade A, ade B, and ade C..nk jd cerite..C nk move out by the end of the month..n A (who is my fren too..double damn!) told me..so i told her i want to move in the room when C is out..then die ok..mlm tu i blk umah parents i..then mlm tu gk A gtau B bout C's moving out..at this point of time i xtau that A was telling B the room is empty then..OMG!! cuz the next day when i re confirm (cuz i had a bad feeling bout that on that day la)..die reply 'kn nana dh ckp semlm..' n tbe2 die pass note kat i saying that i need to be faster cuz B nk blek tu jugak..then i told her..kn i dh bgtau u..so xde mslh la..then she said ok..tp i stil had the bad feeling then i msg B regarding that..then B ckp..die xtau i nk msk blek tu..sbb die pn nk blek tu..sbb die nk share ngn org utk krgkn sewe..tp i ckp kat die i dh gtau A dlu..so cane?then she changed the topic n i tot it was ok..

but this morning..A told B called her regarding that n she wants the room! F*** B la!! bodo nk mampos!! i bengang gile!! n A asked me to re consider?? triple damn here!! i was like..OMG!! i yg mtk dlu kn??ape ni..???n u r my fren,dude?? asal u xckp yg mmg i nk blek tu dlu? n u asked me to reconsider?? bangang x ko wat gitu?? aku mmg sgt bengang..n dr pg sp ptg i nyer temper xcool lg..sbb bengang..n rs cm kne betrayed plak..n that f***ing B..ko pegi mampos!! selfish k! sbb ko nk krgkn sewe ko..aku plak yg kne ngalah?? n every weekend ko enjoy..nope..weekdays pn same..everyday ko merokok..ko siap pkai kete..n yet..org kne tggung ko susah?dh tau gaji xbesa mn..nk pkai kete..merokok..bole plak ko spend rokok sekotak seploh hengget yg ko beli ntah bp kali tu?? dh tetiap ari ko merokok ptg tgh mlm..bp kotak ko beli semggu?bole afford plak??mule pkai moto pastu tuka kete..bole afford plak?? ape bangang sgt ko ni?? aku benci gile ko!!

conclusion nyer..amek je la ko master bedroom tu..tp lps ni..selaen blek aku..aku xnk amek port dh psl umah tu..paip nk rosak ke..kunci nk rosak ke..gas bocor ke..xde kne ngene ngn aku dh..bodo..kt berlembut ati..org pijak2 paler plak..mcm taik!!

so ppl..dont trust anybody..n xyh bg muke sgt kat org..cuz in d end..they dont care bout ur feelings..

*I dont mess with pplcuz i dont like ppl messing with me..but when they start messing around..i'll mess with them back!*

lirik lagu trust you by yuna itou XD

TRUST YOU - YUNA ITOU

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni

ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni

kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni

naze hito ha kizutsukeau no

naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,

rain moistens the Earth…

If everyone in this world want to live together,

why do they hurt each other?

Why do they separate?

kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada

itsumo kono kokoro mannaka

ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama

dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni

itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara

shiniteru yo mata aeru to

I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still

be in my heart.

With that tender smile, I get buried and

held in a fragment of you…

Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,

I believe we’ll meet one again.

I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,

so don’t let go.

sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no

tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no

ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo

shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii

sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?

Who informed us of the Journey’s End?

I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,

I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in

because a light is waiting for you.

kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha

ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka

ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru

afureru kimochi no shizuku ga

atatakaku hoho tsutau

tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to

I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me

still lies within my heart.

Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.

The fragment of my overflowing emotions

streak down my warm cheeks.

I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.

I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga

I love you, I trust you

ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you

for you, I shed these tears.

I love you, I trust you

you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you.

Waiting for you love,

always by your side,

you’re the one that I love,

you’re the one that I trust,

you’re the only one.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo

I love you, I trust you

kanashimi demo yorokobi demo

I love you, I trust you

kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness.

I love you, I trust you

be it sadness or happiness.

I love you, I trust you

I want to protect your everything.

donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you because we trust each other…

Don’t let go.

*yes..i love you too*

back to normal..again??

hahahhaa~ mmg hampeh sekali..hurm..ari tu dh let go..skang xjd plak..cane tuh??hehe..the second day xcontact2 ngn die..tbe2 dpt msg kat fb..ingtkn ade la die tulih pjg2 mau bersm semule ke ape ke kn..rupenye x..die bg lagu jepun la plak..tittle 'trust you' by sp tah xingt..seb baek lagu tu ade lyric in english..bole le phm sket2...hehe..tp suke sgt lirik die..nnt i post lirik die..best..best..best..then mlm sket..die msg mtk maaf n all sort..cm mtk contact2 blk..sbb die sedih..wahhhhh~~ terharu sgtttt~ tros cair k..then i msg die ckp syg..hohoho~ kejap je dh cair..hampe..then dh baek2 la mlm tu..hoyeah~



*yes..love is blind..wink wink*