Friday, 22 March 2013

slow progress

what's with slow progress??

i feel that my head is going to blow when dealing with laid back people..

I have always tried to avoid dealing with this kind of people because they somehow dont have the sense of urgency..

all they do is relaxing and eating and sleeping and more productivity!

oh pleaseeeee!! dont you feel sorry to waste even only 1 second? specially when you have something to do????

i like progress! and i need progress!!

arghhhh!! why do i have to deal with themmmm???? why?? why???

im no perfect person too..i can still tolerate/compromise with a lot of things but i really cant handle it when small simple tasks which can be done in 1 day..but they were not completed even after 3 days!!

i hate it so much!! like seriously!! whats on your mind??? dont u have goals??

Dear Allah,

Please grant me more patience and please open their heart to take life more seriously..please and please and please..i beg you.. T_T


Tuesday, 12 March 2013

Contribution vs money

Which one is more important?

Haha..I used to have a principle where I have always wanted to contribute something to the country and may that lead to the ummah too..

I have gotten the opportunity to do that..but it seems that the journey is so tough..and with the fact the income is not as big as other people..and I am married..

But holding on my principle..and I have been living with it..I tried to shut my ears n to close my eyes from looking at other people's big income..specially my close that I will not be dragged into doing-my-work-for-the-sack-of-money mindset..and to my surprise..I managed to do it for like 2 years..

Now that I am married..I am expecting to achieve my goals that have been set for some years ahead..and it's quite hard on me since my timeline has been dragged for a year or two..feel like crying..and when I am at this stage..having people offered me job with higher pay..and people who tried to influence me in changing my job to get better pay..I have been refusing to the offers/invitations..until today..when one offered me a job that is very closely related to my current job with 150% higher pay (maybe it's not really high for some people out there) made me pause a while to think which one is important - my principle or money?

Yet..I decided to choose my principle over money at this point of time I am writing this entry..

Am I making a bad move? What about other people out there? Is there anyone has the same thought as mine?

May Allah lead me to the right path and grant me more knowledge and achievement in life..

*sometimes money cant buy just everything*

Monday, 4 March 2013

Unexpected event

It was a hectic weekend...

Sat; cleaning up house, went for 'merisik' for my brother at night
Sun; attended an engagement event of a friend of mine, visited a schoolmate at kpj shah alam, went for grocery shopping at alamanda

But..of all events, I would like to share the moment of visiting my friend at the hospital - it really touched my heart and I could not stop myself from thinking about it.. T_T

I have gotten the message since last week and planned for a visit during the first, I thought it was only a tumour (not a cancerous one) although it's usually can be cancerous but I wished to stay positive..

We reached there at around 2pm and after gathered with another 2 friends of mine..we went to the room..btw, it's 'he'..a male friend from my high we had some conversation with him and later found out that it can be a cancerous one as it is already in 10-inch size..whats affected the fatal organ, so only 2inch of it can be removed and he has to go for a chemotherapy session starting today to remove the rest of it..when I heard 10-inch..I thought 'it's huge!'..and I was really speechless because I was really sad to think about him and his family and he's still young anyway..

His mother was there and she could not stop crying..I can see how worry she was..after stayed there for a while, we decided to leave...all I can say to him at that time was only to remain positive for anything that may come up next..just make sure to have a positive thinking so that the cells can be positive as well in order to heal faster or at least it will not get worst..and later can survive better..

To my shock, his wife was really calm..really2 calm..I did not see any sign of tears in her eyes..I believe she was holding in inside her for she has a son and a husband to take care of..I could not imagine if I was in her place..I may not easily accept this and stay as calm as she was..

I pray that allah would lessen their burden and make them tough to face this..because I am very sure allah gave them this kind of test to make sure they grow to become a better muslim..because I know he was a really good person at school previously..I mean as long as I know him..hes not a troublesome..

And..I just realized why allah has gotten me into this industry.. -> for me to perform better and help more people..inshaa allah..will try my very best to do so..

*a positive mind, creates positive cells that make up the body*

Friday, 1 March 2013

Being firm..

I hate to received calls from insurance's not that I am being arrogant..but it annoyed me when they couldnt accept a 'no' as a reply..was it so hard to believe that theres no budget for that just yet? Different people have different ways of managing their financial..cant they at least understand that?

Just now, I received a call from an insurance agent..Ive been talking really softly with them previously but I dont know whats happening to me today but I guess he came at the wrong I just being direct and straight forward with him..

A call came in...

Me: hello?
Him: maaf mengganggu..bla dr ***** insurance...bole ckp sebentar?
Me: rs sy xberminat..
Him: mcm mn cik bole rs xberminat sedangkan sy belum bercerite ttg produk ni lg?
Me: tau kalo sy mmg xnk..n skr pn sy sgt sibuk..
Him: owh..kalau begitu, sy mnta maaf krn mengganggu cik..
Me: ok..tq

This is the first time i did it this way..but even though hes questioning my decision..I believe I should just be firm with my stand..and tell him directly instead of listening to him but I was so confirmed my answer will still be 'no'..whats d point? Cuz I'll be wasting both his and my time..right?

*being firm may seem cruel but it also may save some resources*