my W.O.R.K..

hurm..i think ive fallen for my work..

just now, when i was ironing my bj kurung for tmrw..my head cant stop thinking bout how to improve the process that i was involved in..n it goes on and on..n i cant wait for tmrw to do the calculations (owh..i love math!)..i think i hv my own theory but i need something to support it..hurm..n i planned to cont doing it during my 1-week vacation (if i cudnt figure out the solution be4 the end of the week) which starts next week..but then to think bout it once again..ive already made a promise to myself to stop thinking bout work for the whole week n enjoy the week cuz thats actually my year end vacation (yes..i didnt take much leaves to save for the end of the year..hehe)..so hopefully i can solve it by this friday or at least to get a back up plan..or alternatives...cuz i think i shud focus on my grandpa who is not well for the whole next week..right??


Dear my beloved brain,

Lets work faster tomorrow until Friday.. XD

Love,
Nana


*Passion can give you satisfaction*

AlonE...

hurm...nothing much to say..


was i was the one at fault?


my only wish is to be happy with little worry..


is it too much?


i dunno...




*the more u were glued to something, the harder to breath*

Updates~~ XD

hurm..ari tu ade ckp psl entry worries ni..hurm..tu snanye risau psl aku finally voiced out my dissatisfaction towards my housemates..ni krn aku rs ade unfairness happened..been quite for months..tot that everybody will realise this n change..but then..same thing happened..so i dont think i can keep silent anymore...cuz i think it's too much..aku rs aku pnah cte psl sorg hosmate yg sebok nk msk master bedroom ni..mcm k berebut plak ngn aku..n aku rs aku dh cte gk die msk gk master bedroom tu..dok sorg2..(erkkk?mampu plak? heh)..then nk jd cte skang ni tggl 3 org je la dlm umah ni..then the other hosmate tu suggest byr sewe..kt bhg 3 tros..i was shocked n quite angry..so aku pn luahkn perasaan thru email..sbb aku bile mrh..aku xle nk ckp dpn2..tkt burst out..then dpt reply dr hosmate positive..cume reply negative dr hosmate yg dok master bedroom tu..die cm xpuas ati np aku xpuas ati..heh..dh nk dok blek besa..tp nk byr sket..ape kes kn?? aku nk dok dlu n nk byr lebih..die sebok nk dok..dh dok..xnk byr lebih plak..plek punye org daaa...so worries ari tu sbb mlm tu we actually ade meeting utk dscuss psl isu tu..hurm..tau x ape jd?dak tu xle nk join..excuse die bg abg die nk kawen mggu tu..so kne g umah kakak die nk wat prep..then die ckp die xtau nk blk umah bile sbb next week nyer kakak die plak kawen..then lg next week die plak tunang..aku agak terkejut..hati berkate 'perghh..kaye sey budak ni..sebln je ade 3 kenduri..aku seniri nk kawen pn mak aku suro selang setaun due drpd akak aku..kaye k..kaye..' hurm..for me..nk larik la tu..drpd komplen byk2 dlm email psl xpuas ati tu..bole plak setuju byr lebih..tkt kne question kot..tp lantak situ la..aku xkesah..yg pntg..aku xrs ditindas lg..hurm..alhamdulillah..lege lps dpt luahkn perasaan.. :)

dh lame xcte cni..sbb xonline sgt..byk gile nk cte dh tertggl..hurm..pastu nk cte psl chi plak..

br je baek gado ngn chi..kes nye..psl adek angkat pmpn die..ye..adek angkat yg gedik..dh tunang,xsedar2 die tunang org..hampeh..

hurm..ari tu dating ngn chi..tbe2 die dpt phone call dr someone..but i saw the name appeared on the phone..i know it's her..damn! then die jwb call tu..tbe2 aku dgr bende yg xberape sdp nk dgr..hurm...DIE ADDRESS DIRI DIE NGN MINAH TU PKAI WORD 'ABG'!!..arghh!! tensen aku! aku bengang gile..sbb word tu special kat aku..tbe2 die bole pkai word tu ngn pmpn laen??mmg panas la!..then gado sket..pastu ari tu aku dh cool down dh..mls nk emo2..tbe2 time mkn ngn die..die brought up isu tu sbb die xpuas ati aku bengang..then die bole plak backing pmpn tu..ckp pmpn tu xmatang la ape la..haishhhh!! mmg sj cr psl..aku ape lg..ngamuk r! kesahnye die kate pmpn tu call sbb excited jmpe die kat shopping complex yg sm..yg aku bengang lg..klo dh excited jmpe..asal xkejar je chi tu..n tego..klo dh sebok n excited sgt kn?? np nk kne call2?tau dh aku ade kat situ ngn chi..xle nk respect aku ke?mesti plek np aku nk bengang2 sgt kn..sbb tu adek angkat je kn?hurm..kesahnye die jd adek angkat tu..sbb diorg actually suke same suke..then pmpn ni pn time tu close ngn sorg mamat ni..pastu die pleh mamat tu..then die decide chi tu jd abg angkat..ape bangang punye style..mcm ajak jd abg angkat tu just to keep him company..tamak siotttt~ yg xtahan tu..die bole plak contact chi senyap2 sbb bf die xsuke die contact2 ngn chi..perghh..ni mmg tahap xrespect bf ni..nk sapu sume ni..nyampah k! pastu chi dh ade gf pn..sebok2 lg..xpuas ati la tu chi dh cr org laen..ni yg aku ckp tamak ni..hurm..dh gado2 ngn chi..mlm td br die call n mntk maaf lg..n die ckp dh xnk contact2 minah tu..hopefully die pegang la kate2 die tu..hasil dr kejadian ni..i told him i wont call him abg anymore..cuz the exclusiveness of the word was killed by his action..die ckp die sdh sbb xle pkai word tu lg..tp i sticked with my own decision..cuz i dont want to get hurt imagining him used the word with the other girl..huhu..sedih woooo~

tp dh dpt dh word br nk pkai utk address die..hihihi~ *happy*

*different person has different way of thinking*

hurm..shocking news?

byknye mende nk tulis sp xtertulis..aduhhh..

received a shocking news n am too speechless to write a sentence bout it..huhuh...

If only I cud hate you..I would..

Hurm..yeap..because of other ppl..I dont hate you..cuz my heart refuses to..knowing that if I hate you..other ppl will get hurt too..but sometimes you are just too much..feel like slamming your face to the door..and punch you on the stomach everytime you come near me..thats how much I hate you..I dont want to see you as someone who close to me..but you are n I have no where to run..but deep in my heart..I ve really wanted to hate you so much..and throw you out of my life..


*sometimes wishes are just not meant to be granted*

worries..

the decision will be made today..im worried cuz i know im alone..since i was alone when the incident happened few months back...im bad at expressing my feeling through talking..thats y i prefer writing but unfortunately they just dont understand the simple math..omg..y do i hv to deal with these ppl..?this has stressed me out for few days already..i know i hv to finish it tonight..i'll tell bout this in next entry..

cant write much..too many things in my mind..

*someone calls it a finishing blow*

trust vs change

np trust vs change? i dun really actually know how to relate this two..but what i learned today is ppl change once you break their trust...because i believe this is somewhat an action of protecting ownself..bkn ke?

rsnye simple mcm ni je kot..A kwn ngn B..then one day A accidentally betrayed B..np aku ckp accidentally?sbb bile kt tnye np wat mcm tu..org slalu ckp..xtau plak klo buat mcm tu awk saket ati..damn! ade mulut bole tnye kn?hahaha..hello?common sense! again...

ok..cth nye mende mcm tu berlaku..even A mntk maaf mcm mn pn..agak2 B will stay the same x?die akan act d same way die act before kne betray x ngn A?

as simple as that kn? my answer will be no..y?cuz if i were at B's place..i wudnt look at A d same way at looked at A before..

moral of the story:try as much possible not to break other ppl's trust unless u dont care..



*it's not easy to gain trust but it is easy to break trust*

Mission Accomplished!!

yeayyy~~ tahniah2~ huwarghhhh~~

gembire sbb mission accomplished!! ape mission nyee?? heee...kua sorg2..tgk movie sorg2..weee~ slalunye xyakin nk wat sbb takut sedih..tp ari ni nekad nk wat jugak n I DID IT!! puas ati sgt wlopn ade few things yg xmenggembirekn..

td tgk movie death place..urghhh! the movie sucks! xde plot..cte merepek gile..ade some part yg aku xfhm n xtau ape motif..tah pape nk mampos..dlm cte tu ade 4 cte..4 cte kot? since aku pn xphm sgt..hehe..n 4-4 cte tu tah pape..yg first cte psl couple mati dlm kebakaran..it started ngn lelaki tu msk umah then kne kaco ngn antu gf die..tp turns out laki tu pn dh mati snanye..so..antu tu kaco sp?xkn antu kaco antu kot??hahahaha~ lawak2..yg kedue plak..psl sorg laki ni bunuh sorg pmpn ni..motif bunuh sbb pmpn tu curik brg die..tp aku xtau ape motif pmpn tu curik..n brg ape pn aku xtau..yg ke 3 plak..ade 3 antu..tp antu2 tu asalnye bunuh sesame seniri..kejap je dh jd antu..hahaha~ lawak2..snanye ade 3 ke 4 cte ek?ntah la..psl aku xfhm ape motif cte ni...merepek xhengat seyyyy~ tp xpe..yg pntg mission aku accomplished! nnt nk try tgk unstoppable plak la..ganti blk cte hampeh ni..sbb gue dh brani kua sorg kkkk~

nk jd cte..blk umah..lepak2 la kat umah ptg tu..mlm ingt nk kua nk beli brg sket..pastu dgrla osmate yg aku nyampah tu kua..aku pnah cte psl osmate ni kat entry jahat ni...hurm..die letak kete die kat dlm..so die bwk kua..aku cm lege sket..sbb bole mskkn kete kat dlm..dh lame kete aku berpns ujan di lua..then lps maghrib tu..aku siap2 nk kua..dh siap tu..kua blek..then kua umah...TADAAAAA~~~ ade plak moto bf die parking baekkkk punya kat tgh2 halaman tu..bangang nk mampos~ ape kes ni??? cop parking ke? moto kottt..ko parking tgh2 wat pe?? ingt parking koooo??time tu berasap je paler aku tahan marah! aduhhh...diorg ni mmg xle blah r! tmbh2 menyampah plak aku k! dh la mmg dr pd aku dh menyirap dh psl bf die parking kete die kat depan umah tu sp amek 1/3 kwsn nk kua kete dr pintu umah tu..teleng leher aku time nk reverse..tp aku cool beb..sbb xnk rosakkn ari aku..mlm die buat pangai mcm ni plak..ni mmg bikin panas niii!!

sambil drive tu..aku monolog 'woih pmpn! ko ingt ko sewe umah ni sorg2 ke?? wat mcm satu umah ni ko punye! susah tol la ade org xtau nk pk ni!!'

*being alone is not so bad ^^*

ethics among engineers..

skema gile title kn? heh~ tbe rs cm nk ckp psl ethic..y?sbb td terbc my cousin's nyer status kat fb asking bout facts related to ethics among engineers..

hurm..i dont want to talk about it in general but want to narrow down to pharmaceutical industry..since this is the industry i was involved in..so guess ive seen so many things happened in it..ok..i cudnt manage to find time to get the real facts..but this is basically my own idea..my views on this particular things..huahuahua..ape yg aku merepek ni..

nk ckp psl ethics eh..for me..it is quite a lottttt~~ but we can actually understand it logically la..just like my mom always remind me..'COMMON SENSE!!' hell yeah..ive been reminding with that for years k..at that time, i dont quite understand whats the exactly common sense means to her..cuz for everything i did,she kept on talking bout common sense..blurghhh..boooooringgg~!

tp rupe2nye..sgt bergune bile bekerje..snanye bergune setiap ms..tp bile dh keje..br aku realize..it's somewhat very important to keep ur job secured..alamak~ dh melencong plakk..erkkkkk...gome2~

ok..msk blk psl ethics..sbg engineer, for me..we hv to be honest in wutever we do..in our reports..our records..our processes..all those sort of things..n if we did a mistake..we hv to report it..cuz when we gv a real thought on it..like myself..im in the pharma industry..thats definitely will deal with humans life..so a small mistake i made..may cause disaster to other ppl's life..dats simple right?

selaen honest..we hv to hv the passion..even if we dont..then why dont try to develop it,no? because y..without passion we wudnt do the work wholeheartedly..n when that happened, high possibility we make mistakes..sbb ade jugak pnah aku nmpk dak2 yg xsuke ngn keje seniri..so..wat ikut suke ati je..xkesah pn..tu br dak2 biase..cube klo engineer?n dat particular engineer is the one whos responsible in making decision..so cane??klo xde passion..n when problem occurred, engineer tu ngn selambe je wat decision sukati n xpk btol2..sbb ade mind set 'klo jd pape,bkn aku yg rugi..'

hurm..bhy x klo xde ethics..?

hurm...byk lg point..tp klo nk explain..cm pnat la plak..hihihi~ nnt la one day aku bg talk on ethics k..xpn bole la bc buku ethics ke..just for a reminder..


*your action is your responsibility*

sedih...

ari ni sedih sgt sp speechless..feel like writing something..tp moody sgt..maybe next time la..


*Be with someone you cant live without..*

appreciate ur brain while u can..

ahahhaa~ gelak bc title post seniri...yeap yeap yeap..slagi bole pkai otak tu..pkai la bebaek ye..

np ckp mcm tu?sbb aku gerammmm sgt!! ade sorg ni..(ye..koje aku mengumpat je..hehe) die buat silap yg xsepatutnye die buat..nk tau knape? sbb everything is written in the book..all he needs to do is to tick where necessary..where necessary means tick at point he completed the task..n the book was prepared by not sure..him or somebody else..but the thing is..it's easy..he just needs to follow the step one by one..but what has he done?? he didnt follow them at all!! perasan dh tau sumenye end up he missed something which is important! nk tau ape kesannye? he caused everything terminated n has to start ALL OVER AGAIN!! ha..bangang xbangang ape die buat tu..tp ape die kesah..?org xmrh pn..org ckp..xpela..kt dende sket je..hopefully die bole berubah..tp org xsedar..otak die bukan kat paler dh..die dh operate tuka ke lutut..or ke a** die mgkn..who knows?aku seniri pn xtau..tp nmpk gaye..otak xmcm kat paler dh..mcm dh beraleh je..kesian...

n lg satu crite plak...ade la sorg ni..dok satu tpt ni..dok bersm2 2-3 grp laen..org kate..msk kandang kambing..mengembek..msk kandang lembu menguak..tp die bole plak oink2 sorg2..xtau malu agaknye..setiap org ade territory seniri..n masing2 pn smpn brg kat territory masing2 la kn..tp oink2 ni x..die punye nk die snang..siap jemput gang oink2 die yg laen..ha ko...brg2 die..ngn brg2 gang die..g smpn kat territory org laen jugak..yg aku tmbh pns..org laen snyap je..dh nmpk org tu buat mende xpkai otak..pn nk senyap lg..ni yg aku xfhm culture melayu ni..mengate belakang..tp dpn2 xckp pape..serius bikin aku pns..n oink2 tu mmg buat aku pns..tgkla..aku jmpe mereke..aku sound direct siap..ye...aku mmg xreti jg mulut..bkn sbb ape..aku xsuke ckp belakang tp xbuat pape..aku rs rugi byk..rugi ms aku..rugi pahale aku..tmbh dose ade..baek aku ckp direct..br puas ati..yg kes pertame tu aku xle ckp ape..xdok kono ngono ngan den..xle buat ape la..tp kes oink2 ni..mmg ade kne ngan aku..sblm aku blah esk..klo aku jmpak diorg..aku bsh cukup2..klo dh geram sgt...aku redah je territory diorg..huahuahua..tp maklumat yg aku dpt..ni lg satu jenis xpkai otak gk...nk tau np?sbb pnah dh satu ms org tue2 salah satu territory ni g tego..tp xreti bhs da..bodo ke hape..lpe...otak pn dh operate letak kat lutut..bangang nk mampos..klo dh org tue2 yg tego xfhm2..tu mmg jenis oink2 la tu..dh pk xpkai otak..nk respect org tue pn xreti2..kesiaaannnn..

YE AKU SGT BENCI ORG YG PK XPKAI OTAK!!

*hey stupid! do you realize your brain has already changed its location?boooo!!*

badminton n dinner...

huwarghhh~~~ 3 ari cuti sgt penoh ngn aktiviti sehat..hoyeah~~ tp pnat la plak 2 ari berturut2 maen badminton..saket tgn woooo~~

ari ni xnk cte pjg la..smlm had a best day in a......hurm xtau la..tp best day la..xle nk compare ngn mggu ke..month ke..yr ke..huahuahua..nk tau np?? sbb chi ajar maen badminton n the best is he had dinner at my house!!!wahhhhhhh!! happy!! yg tmbh happy..aku yg msk woooo..lamb chop..macaroni grg..n salad..menjilat jari k!! nyum2!!

then die cm berat ati je nk blk..n pg td time ckp tpon ngn die..tnye la die..die ckp die mmg berat ati..cm xnk blk..wahhh!! best2! hehe....pastu die ckp dinner sume sedap..die sukee sume! seb baek die ckp suke..brani la die nk ckp xsuke..ade aku ketuk2 paler die..xpn suro die msk seniri je..hohohoo~


*when you cook for someone you love,cook whole heartedly*

penjual kerepek..peminta sedekah..

hurm..ari ni shift pg..so blk awal..then..g lepak2 ngn adek2 kat 1 kopitiam ni..tgh2 menikmati jelly bee tu..tbe2 dtg sorg budak ni..mtk sedekah..aku cm serbe salah nk bg..bg..rs cm ade sindiket..xbg..cm xbaek..then..my sis ckp..'xyh bg la..sindiket tu..kang lg die suro dak2 tu mtk sedekah..' then aku pn rs ade btol nye jugak..lame sket pastu..dtg plak lg sorg..macek jual kerepek..then aku rs kepek die cm best..aku pn beli la..

pk2 blk..aku xsuke snanye tgk macek2 or bdk2 mtk sedekah..jual kerepek..lg2 macek2..bwk kerepek berat2..pegi sane sini jual kerepek..huwaaaaa~~ sedih sgttttt!! huhu..ckp psl macek jual kepek ni..teringt plak time study dulu..kua ngn membe mkn sate..dtg sorg macek ni jual kepek..muke die nmpk sgt pnat..kitorg beli je la kepek tu..dh mmg suke mkn kepek pn..time mkn tu..macek tu berehat kat 1 kerusi dekat ngn meje kitorg..aku nmpk la macek tu lap peluh..pnat la tu..sedih sgt..then nmpk mate die asek tgk org2 yg mkn sate..nikmat nye mkn sate....agaknye tu la detik ati macek tu..sbb dr riak muke..nmpk mcm die terliur nk mkn sate tu..hati aku terdetik..macek ni teringin sate ke?..tp aku perati je die..tbe2 dgr die pggl pelayan restoran tu..terdgr plak die ckp ngn pelayan tu..'dek..macek nk beli sate 5 batang..' huhu..tersentuh hati aku..seumur idop aku..xpnah sekali aku mtk nk beli sate or ape2 mknn dlm kuantiti yg sket..n macek tu mtk bgks..aku assume,mesti die nk bwk blk umah..klo bwk blk umah,mesti die xmkn sorg..wahhh..sedihnye rs ati ni..ters la aku xpernah rs susah mcm tu..klo pnah susah pn..mgkn parents aku yg rs..

bersyukur jugak xde dlm family aku yg terpkse susah pyh mcm tu..insyaallah..aku seniri pn xkn bia mak abah aku bersusah pyh mcm tu..bia aku yg susah payah plak..


p/s serius rs nk nanges teringt macek2 tu..huhuhu~


*be thankful of what you have cuz some people may not be able to afford it*

kepenatan...

huwarghhh~~ dh 2 ari keje mlm..ari ni off..mlm td bykkk plak keje..blk umah lmbt..ye sesgghnye bdn sy sengal2 pg ini..n sgtla susah nk bgn pg td..rs adek ade kejut tp xingt lgsg die ckp ape..n sedar2 tpt tidur dh berubah..bile bgn n ubah tpt tido pn xsedar..hahaha~

snanye cm suke je keje mlm n keje berat2 dlm plant..sbb berpikiran positive mgkn ngn care ni dpt kuruskn bdn..yela..sbb xmkn mlm..pastu wat keje berat kn..tp rsnye pnah terbc somewhere..klo tdo lmbt..n xckp tdo..possibility jd gemok tu agak tggi..hahaha~ cane tuuu?? pttla xkurus2..

plan nk exercise 2 ari off day ni..tp..kne pk lg kot...hahaha pemalas!


*exercise for your health? hehe*

S.L.E.E.P.Y *_*

huwarghhhhh~~ ngantoknyeeee...operation starts at 330pm..rs ngantuk nk tdo..tp rs nk bukak blog jugak..make bukak blog dlu lah..hahahhaampeh~ td g umah uncle..sbb sepupu br bersalin..so melawat baby la..weee~ pastu time visit tu sembang2 kat meje mkn sambil mkn cucur..hee..

pastu my uncle ni cite la psl anak sulung die yg nk benti keje n nk start bisnes..tp die cm sedih n kecewe sgt anak die nk benti keje..hurmm..fhm2 np..yela dh tue2 mcm tu..mgkn ade perasaan nk anak pk seniri or jd independent sket..alih2..mcm2 kerenah plak..then my sis ckp ngn uncle aku tu..bia je la die nk buat bisnes..klo jd pape,he can learn..n nk xnk kene cr jln nk survive..then my uncle replied..ye la..klo jd pape..sp yg saket paler nnt nk pk..nk tanggung..?? btol jugak ckp uncle aku tu..die kecewe sbb alasan sepupu aku nk benti..sbb job tu xkne ngn interest die..die xminat..xkne ngn field die..hurmmmm..then uncle aku tu pn complain sket..'org susah nk cr keje..nk msk company..die snang2 je nk resign..'

yela..btol la tu..teringt pesan2 trainer time training before dpt keje dlu..mmg susah nk dpt keje yg kne ngn interest ni..awal2 bekerje, nk xnk mmg kne susah2 dlu..sbb kt bkn expert..experience pn xde..bile dh byk experience..byk kmpl skill..time tu la br bole demand..tp exp tu paling min pn 5 taun la br cantekkk..btol la tu..yg penting kne secure job dlu..klo xsuke..nk benti pn..kne ade back up..nk buat bisnes pn..make sure ade back up plan in case bisnes xmenjd..huhu..ntah la..aku pn xtau bisnes sgt..mmg risky nk wat bisnes..thats y aku rs kne ade back up plan..at least ade saving dlu ke..klo simply buat bisnes pkai duit saving..in case bisnes xjd..caneee??hurm..sian plak tgk uncle aku tu..muke kerut2 mesti die susah ati..xpe2..moge2 die dpt bersbr..mn tau tu mmg jln terbaek utk anak die ke..doa2 je la..


*life is a gamble*

malaysian drivers attitude.. T T

hurm..td blk keje kol 630pm..byk gk kete..tp mmg time2 tu byk kete..so ari2 pn blk byk kete..hahahaha! tp otw blk ternmpk la pangai2 buruk malaysian drivers..yeap..mmg dh lame rs drivers kat msia xbersopan santun di jln raye..tp ari ni bertmbh ters n menyampah pn ade..blk keje tu..2 kali terserempak ngn drivers yg xsbr..klo jmpe dpn2 ni..rs nk ketuk je paler yg xreti bersbr tu..perghhh!! kt yg tgk ni pn menyirap sikit..cenggini..mule kat roundabout..ade 1 kete ni..mgkn xberape reti nk nyelit msk roundabout tu..tp mmg susah sket nk msk..sbb byk kete..pastu tbe2 satu kete kat blakang die..cpt2 potong kete tu n berie msk roundabout..aku yg dekat2 situ terkejut sket..tbe2 ade kete kua..perghh!! pns je drh mudeku ni..geram!! dlm ati ckp.."aduhhh..xle sbr ke..sian la kete tu nk lintas..seb baek bkn aku..klo x,mau luruh jantung tbe2 ade kete msk dr belakang..ngok tol!" then nk dekat sp umah tu..ade simpang 3..tgh beratur nk msk simpang..pastu nmpk plak ade satu kete buat pangai xsbr mcm kete td tu msk simpang..die join skali msk ngn kete depan die..so double kete msk skaligus..seb baek kete yg depan sekali tu xpress ke ape..die nk kedepan sket pn tros brake..tp due2 kete dh rapat je..sket lg mmg boom!! langgo leeee jawabnye..aku yg tgh beratur kat blakang ni..menyirap skali lg.."ape psl la ari ni ramai je org2 xsabo..bkn nye nk lame mane pn beratur..drpd buat mende2 bhy tu..sesie je klo accident.."

serius menyampah ngn drivers yg ade attitude mcm tu..ape diorg ingt diorg tu tere sgt ke bwk kete nk buat2 mcm tu???saba2 la sket..umah ke..destinasi tu..xkemn..dok kat situ jugak..cpt ke lmbt ke..sampai jugak..xdela esk pg tu br sp..yg nk gopoh2 tu np..xpk ke..wat mcm tu..driver laen akan terkejut..aduhhh..tlglahhhh pkai otak sket bile bwk kete..aku pn bkn pemandu berhemah mn..tp xla wat onar kat org mcm tu..xslh pn mengalah bg org lps dlu..drpd nnt kt yg jd cause accident..pastu dh accident mule la nk blame org laen..pdhal dh terang2 seniri salah..amende laaaaaa...dh pndai bwk kete sket..dh xingt dh precaution yg blaja time amek lesen dlu.. *sigh*

hurm..ni cite laen plak..dlu aku pnah ade mskkn entry psl housemates aku yg bengong dlu..perghh! aku rs die mmg plek laaaaa~!! aku pn dh xingt ape aku ngomel2 psl diorg kat sini..tp slh sorg yg aku ckp nk msk master bedroom utk share ngn org laen sbb nk krgkn sewe tu..aku nk cte psl die la ni..bole x ari tu berie ckp nk master bedroom tu sbb nk share ngn org..so die bole krgkn sewe die..aku mmg dh xhadap dh master bedroom tu lps crisis ari tu..mls la..so org2 yg die ajak share tu xjd dok situ..diorg xjd msk umah..aku xheran pn mule2..pastu tbe2 lg sorg housemate ckp kat aku..minah tu nk pndh msk master bedroom gk..then dak ni ckp kat die..bole je..tp kne byr lebih la..pastu die ckp xpe je..BOLE PULAK?????? amende ko merepek ni!! ari tu cm berie nk reduce sewe..alih2 bole pulak dok sorg master bedroom tu siap bole byr lebih lg?? ko ni gilo ko??tbe2 naek gaji ke?? arghhh!! sesgghnye aku mmg menyampah ngn ko k!!! byk tol topeng ko pkai..tp xdela isu besa sgt kat aku snanye..sbb sejak ari tu aku mmg xhadap r rumah tu termsk diorg tu..dh menyampah dh..mmg mcm aku ckpla..aku xamek port psl diorg n umah tu lg dh..hishhh!! ade gk org plek mcm tu..xfhm aku..split personality kot..hihi


*people are just unpredictable and sometimes are just annoying T T*

when u gained something..be prepared to lose something..

hurm..the title reminds me of my chemistry subject during secondary school..or matriks ek?lpe..if im not mistaken, thermodynamic balancing ke?or atomic? dh xingt dh..tp the principle is so great!yeah..it applies everywhere..ur work..study..or secare general la kat mn2! hahaha~

i was on fb just now..n read my frens' comments..diorg claimed i was so good to be able to be an engineer..to be able to apply things that we studied during the university days before..cuz not all of us were able to secure a job related to our studies..some of em said 'hebatla nana..' but..

thinking bout it again..bersyukur sgt dpt secure job yg related ngn minat n field seniri..tp diorg terlpe..the balancing principle..u get something..u lose something..huhu~ so far..lps dh keje setaun..i missed quite a lot of things..i didnt hv time to keep in touch with my frens..i even forgot their birthdays..working in somewhat fast-pace-required place..i wasnt able to keep track on dates..i kept on working only to realize that 2 weeks were already passed..however, it's not like i was bz all the time..but the free times i had were not enough to get updates on my family n frens..yg sedihnye..aku dh krg spend ms ngn adek2 aku..sedar2,one of em dh settle ngn spm trial xms..xsempat nk ajar die btol2..even pnah skali i promised her i'd go home to support her since shes having add math paper the next day..tp aku blk umah..dh mlm..n tersgt pnat..sempat tgk2 die kejap..dh kne prepare utk g keje esk..rs ralat sket..tp seb baek die ok..

kdg2..rs letih keje mcm ni..tp mcm addicted..byk kali try cr keje br..tp xpnah seriously applied for other jobs..sbb tiap2 kali cr keje br..hati rs berat je nk tuka keje..syg sgt keje ni..cume utk ms dpn bile dh berkeluarge..mgkn terpkse sacrifice..sbb xnk ilang ms utk family..sbb i believe..atr minat n mase utk yg tersyg..ms tu lg penting..sbb skali ilang ms tu..kt xkn pnah dpt blk..this is what my heart tells me for the moment..i might change..but hopefully i will hold on to this when it requires me to..


*equilibrium principle: gain something = lose something*

syg org yg syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt syg..

been a while xcte kat sini..bz ngn production..huhu~

yeap..true...org slalu ckp...klo nk berpsgan..biarlah bersm ngn org yg btol2 syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt btol2 syg..specially pmpn la..knape?sbb perasaan terhegeh2 tu sgt menyakitkn n rs cm pathetic giler..rs sdh sgtttttt..susah nye nk pujuk diri n bg die dgr n sedar..org tu xnk sgt pn kat die..die je yg terhegeh2..

pdhal org tu xde pape sgt..xde pape yg bole bg kat die..tp np die syg sgt..np die syg sgt kat org tu..bkn die xle jd independent..kdg2..rs jeles tgk org2 yg bhgie berpsgn..terdetik..seronoknye ek jmpe ngn soulmate kt..yg buat kt rs secure..buat kt rs di appreciate..

kdg2..terpk jugak..when it comes to love..i have to go through the hard way..or is it just me..who likes to choose the hard way..?before this..i prayed hard i wont fall for anybody..but at last i fall for him..not knowing he wudnt really appreciate me in the future..sdhnye rs..or..mgkn aku seniri yg xreti appreciate org..sbb tu org xappreciate aku..or mgkn aku xdpt terime baek buruk org?mgkn aku nkkn yg perfect?

aku rs x..ckpla klo die buat aku rs secure..n appreciate aku seadenye..

nk sgt lpskn die..tp syg sgt kat die..xfhm..xfhm...n sdh sgt..



*why does love hurts so much?*

Never trust people

Yeap..never trust people..cuz at anytime they will break it..pufff..juz like that..damn it!

Ari ni i moody n mrh gile! this is because of my stupid housemates! arghhh!! geram sgt2! cte nye cemni..currently we all ade 4 org..termsk myself..so ade A, ade B, and ade C..nk jd cerite..C nk move out by the end of the month..n A (who is my fren too..double damn!) told me..so i told her i want to move in the room when C is out..then die ok..mlm tu i blk umah parents i..then mlm tu gk A gtau B bout C's moving out..at this point of time i xtau that A was telling B the room is empty then..OMG!! cuz the next day when i re confirm (cuz i had a bad feeling bout that on that day la)..die reply 'kn nana dh ckp semlm..' n tbe2 die pass note kat i saying that i need to be faster cuz B nk blek tu jugak..then i told her..kn i dh bgtau u..so xde mslh la..then she said ok..tp i stil had the bad feeling then i msg B regarding that..then B ckp..die xtau i nk msk blek tu..sbb die pn nk blek tu..sbb die nk share ngn org utk krgkn sewe..tp i ckp kat die i dh gtau A dlu..so cane?then she changed the topic n i tot it was ok..

but this morning..A told B called her regarding that n she wants the room! F*** B la!! bodo nk mampos!! i bengang gile!! n A asked me to re consider?? triple damn here!! i was like..OMG!! i yg mtk dlu kn??ape ni..???n u r my fren,dude?? asal u xckp yg mmg i nk blek tu dlu? n u asked me to reconsider?? bangang x ko wat gitu?? aku mmg sgt bengang..n dr pg sp ptg i nyer temper xcool lg..sbb bengang..n rs cm kne betrayed plak..n that f***ing B..ko pegi mampos!! selfish k! sbb ko nk krgkn sewe ko..aku plak yg kne ngalah?? n every weekend ko enjoy..nope..weekdays pn same..everyday ko merokok..ko siap pkai kete..n yet..org kne tggung ko susah?dh tau gaji xbesa mn..nk pkai kete..merokok..bole plak ko spend rokok sekotak seploh hengget yg ko beli ntah bp kali tu?? dh tetiap ari ko merokok ptg tgh mlm..bp kotak ko beli semggu?bole afford plak??mule pkai moto pastu tuka kete..bole afford plak?? ape bangang sgt ko ni?? aku benci gile ko!!

conclusion nyer..amek je la ko master bedroom tu..tp lps ni..selaen blek aku..aku xnk amek port dh psl umah tu..paip nk rosak ke..kunci nk rosak ke..gas bocor ke..xde kne ngene ngn aku dh..bodo..kt berlembut ati..org pijak2 paler plak..mcm taik!!

so ppl..dont trust anybody..n xyh bg muke sgt kat org..cuz in d end..they dont care bout ur feelings..

*I dont mess with pplcuz i dont like ppl messing with me..but when they start messing around..i'll mess with them back!*

lirik lagu trust you by yuna itou XD

TRUST YOU - YUNA ITOU

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni

ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni

kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni

naze hito ha kizutsukeau no

naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,

rain moistens the Earth…

If everyone in this world want to live together,

why do they hurt each other?

Why do they separate?

kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada

itsumo kono kokoro mannaka

ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama

dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni

itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara

shiniteru yo mata aeru to

I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still

be in my heart.

With that tender smile, I get buried and

held in a fragment of you…

Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,

I believe we’ll meet one again.

I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,

so don’t let go.

sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no

tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no

ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo

shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii

sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?

Who informed us of the Journey’s End?

I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,

I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in

because a light is waiting for you.

kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha

ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka

ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru

afureru kimochi no shizuku ga

atatakaku hoho tsutau

tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to

I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me

still lies within my heart.

Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.

The fragment of my overflowing emotions

streak down my warm cheeks.

I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.

I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga

I love you, I trust you

ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you

for you, I shed these tears.

I love you, I trust you

you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you.

Waiting for you love,

always by your side,

you’re the one that I love,

you’re the one that I trust,

you’re the only one.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo

I love you, I trust you

kanashimi demo yorokobi demo

I love you, I trust you

kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness.

I love you, I trust you

be it sadness or happiness.

I love you, I trust you

I want to protect your everything.

donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you because we trust each other…

Don’t let go.

*yes..i love you too*

back to normal..again??

hahahhaa~ mmg hampeh sekali..hurm..ari tu dh let go..skang xjd plak..cane tuh??hehe..the second day xcontact2 ngn die..tbe2 dpt msg kat fb..ingtkn ade la die tulih pjg2 mau bersm semule ke ape ke kn..rupenye x..die bg lagu jepun la plak..tittle 'trust you' by sp tah xingt..seb baek lagu tu ade lyric in english..bole le phm sket2...hehe..tp suke sgt lirik die..nnt i post lirik die..best..best..best..then mlm sket..die msg mtk maaf n all sort..cm mtk contact2 blk..sbb die sedih..wahhhhh~~ terharu sgtttt~ tros cair k..then i msg die ckp syg..hohoho~ kejap je dh cair..hampe..then dh baek2 la mlm tu..hoyeah~



*yes..love is blind..wink wink*

if you set ur love free..will you be happy?

hurm..what a day..ari yg xbest tmbh ngn emosi yg xstable..result in gloomy day..darn..~!

last nite..i found a letter given by chi 2 years back..time tu sy xberminat ngn mn2 n sgt2 xsuke lelaki..makenye..sy xlyn die..so in the letter, he told me he was upset..he wanted to contact me so badly but he cancelled it cuz he knew i wudnt bother to answer or entertain him..die ckp..die nak nak nak nak sgt ckp ngn sy..tp die kuat kn ati xcontact..reading the letter, i realized..this is not the same person..die skang..xhingin pn contact sy..klo call pn x..msg apetah lg..pdhal..call n msg sume free..hehehe..sedihnye..

then mlm tu..we talked on the phone i brought up the letter matters..tp dgr jwpn die..buat sy lg sedih..wondering is he really love me? or hes with me because hes so happy that his dream girl is with him..after yrs of waiting? sbb die ckp..die yg skrg n die yg dlu sgt laen..die yg dulu..suke sgt3 kat sy..tp die yg skrg suke as in suke..tp bkn sgt3 mcm dlu..sbb die bhgi2 kn suke/syg tu kat org laen gk..bkn kat sy org..part tu xsedih sgt..yg jd sedih..bile die ckp..die sunyi kwn2 die xde..die sdh xdpt nk keep in touch ngn kwn2 die..i was like..'awk dgn sy..tp awk sdh sbb kwn2 awk xde..so..sy ape kat awk snanye?'.. i shudnt be so sad..cuz it is expected..it's just that it's hard to digest the fact that it is one-sided love..hahaha~ no wonder he wudnt bother contacting me all this while..

talking bout this..teringt..klo 1 crite..ade part 1 n part 2..part 2 slalu xdpt sambutan..u know y..cuz the second part is a mistake..it shudnt be made to public..yeah..juz like mine..our 2nd part is a mistake..yes..he used to hv a feeling for me..but it was gone long time ago..when he already met d other person..when i ignored him few yrs back..


so.. i decided to let him go................


*yes..it's true..one-sided love hurts :_(*

signal kerete~~

wahhhhh~~~ geramnye!! hurm..time blaja bwk kete dlu instructor xajar bg signal ke?? lg2 kat roundabout..kdg2 org xle bajet kite nkg mn weihh!! dh due kali dh dpn mate seniri org hampir accident sbb xbg signal la! bhy tau! xpk ke!

hurm..klo sy..dlu bg muke la..skarang..sp xbg signal n mengganggu sy driving..mmg sy hon je! geram sgt la! xcool lgsg k xbg signal! annoying lg adela..ish! geram btol la!


ok...tuka topic...hurm..ari ni bykkk keje..sp kne tulis to-do list..biase jarang buat..ingt dlm kepale je..skarang..terpkse la..keje melambak..sp confuse2 dh project yg mn..alamak!hehehe...


ari ni wat silappppp~~ arghh! xsuke..dh aware psl tu..tp xwat pape..huhu..troknye sy..tp kne usehe lg la..lps ni kne improve!..hehehe..snanye cm xlarat la nk cite byk..cm post dulu..byk nk cte..tp tgn xlarat nk taip dh..post smlm lpe mende..ari ni xlarat nk taip..ngn saket gigi sbb g cabut gigi td..geraham bongsu yg xle nk gosok..cabut je la..hurm..rs cm nk duduk diam xwat pape..bole x??hehehehe~~




*Hands were given to be used wisely, no?*

hari yg menyenangkan...

hihihi huhuhu hohoho..yeay~ ari ni agak best! bkn sbb keje best..sbb ade something best happened..hurm...nk tau ape die?


jeng jeng jeng....




heee...tbe2..kol 2 ptg td..chi call..sesgghnye sy terkejut sbb jarang sgt die call time ofis hr..then sy angkat n tnye np..die ckp 'na..tgn abg saket sgt la..saketnye..cane ni?'

wahhhhhh!! hati melonjak kegembiraan..bkn sbb die saket ok..sbb die mengadu die saket..n tgh2 ofis hr..which means die pn tgh2 on d way g kelas..omg!! best sgt die mengadu kat sy..sbb die mmg almost xpnah mengadu2 ni la..dh call n msg pn jarang sgt..apetah lg nk ngadu..pastu sy pn bgla mcm2 suggestion supaye die tenang sket..pastu die ngadu2 lg..cm bdk kecik..manjeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ wahhhh!! gembire btol ati ni..rs cm sgt2 diperlukn chi..hehhehee~

make..tu je la crite sy..byk lg nk crite..tp tgn cm letih sgt nk menaip..ari ni bz3..snanye ari2 pn bz..huhu..tp kepale otak byk sgt info..n xtersusun..make..byk crite dh lupe..cane? hehehe~




* It doesnt take so much to create a happy heart =D *

1 Malaysia

Today is 1 Malaysia day..It's supposed to be a holiday..but I have to work today cuz my company has an important visit tmrw...but that's not the story I wish to share here..

Ari ni didnt start well..sbb kne mrh ngn special someone(lets call him 'chi' haha) EARLY in the morning..gosh~ slalu nye bile ari xstart ngn baek..it may last till nite..huhu..(thank God it didnt..he) biase mmg kejut chi subuh tiap2 ari..so kejut la die ari ni..then kne mrh pulak..n die cm nk sy letak cpt2..sdh sgt..drpd rs nk epi pg2..jd sedih plak..huhuhu..tros tertdo blk..bgn dh xde mood nk g keje..seb baek sy lupe ari ni cuti..so gagahkn diri bgn jugak..g keje kn..then bile nk kua kn kete tu..cm pelik plak..asal umah org seblah ni xkua kn kete..xkeje ke?tgk umah2 laen pn steady je...xde sp sebok g keje..pk punye pk..br teringt..'owh..ari ni 1 Malaysia'.. no wonder..then shoot je la g keje..hehe

so keje cm biase..ari ni bz sket..byk nk wat preparation for the visit..darn..visit tu sgt pntg..sgt takut tggu esk..in case kne tnye pape ngn visitor tu..nk jwb ape??kang klo slh jwb..sesie je..dh la visitor tu backgroundnyer mantap..sume ade PhD..huhuh..cano niii..huu..xrs 1 malaysia dh ari ni...huhu..

Logo 1 malaysia ;)

tp xpe..tabah kn ati..esk ni..maen taram je la pape yg ptt..cm org ckp..better than nothing..lalalala~

Nana..semoge berjaye! berusehe!

*Allah wont burden us with things that are beyond our capability.. =D *

First entry-Introductry session..blurgh~

I was known as nana..previously n currently..purpose of blogging to let my heart speaks..been planning to do so ages ago..but cudnt manage to do it due to tight schedule..but now wish to push myself to blog so that things kept inside wudnt become a poison to myself..hahaha~

*when heart talks, life can turn upside down*