My current addiction~

is MY HUSBAND!

hahahaha..yeah..im addicted to my husband..anyway, i am actually trying to complete 3 chapters of my dissertation since last thursday (im still writing it now..huhuhu T_T).. but somehow i found it hard whenever my husband is at home..even though he was sleeping, i couldnt stop myself from taking a peek at him..for few seconds is enough..but then i did the same thing again after few minutes..and the cycle went on and on..so..how in the world i can start writing my dissertation?? erkkk!! im in trouble!!

sometimes, i just wished ive already finished my studies so that i have every seconds to spend with him..but unfortunately it was just a dream..actually, i was having quite a heavy workload (it seemed simple..but it's not for me..so i took longer time to complete it..) in the past few weeks..so i spend most of my time trying to finish my work-day and night..and i didnt have so much time to spend with him..but as the jobs were completed, i have another dateline-my dissertation..it's quite frustrating that u had done ur work but u could not yet reward yourself with something you like as you were having another dateline to chase at the same time..huhuhuhu..

so my current goal is to complete the three chaps ASAP so i have more time to spend with him..yeah!!


I love you, husband! (i actually took a picture of him sleeping..so cute!! lovely!! hahaha)


*May our love grow stronger like a beautiful tree*

A quick stop...

huwarghhh!! it's been a whileee~~ i wish i could write more..have a list of them..but currently too busy with work and study..

Oh Dear Blog aka Cumi (i just named you cumi..hehe),

I am really sorry I havent visited you and talked to you for quite a long time..I have been busy at the moment..I havent really got the time to even online my YM..LOL~ sounds too busy huh? I suppose yes..So, I will visit you again someday so that I can share my stories here..No worries, got plenty of them..

Why do I named you Cumi? Do you know Cumi is a squid in Indonesian Language..?I love squid so much specially the tempura one..haha..I can eat a bucket of em..LOL that tells how fat I am..urghhh!

Now that proves I love you bloggie..hehe..since I named you with a thing that I love soooo much!!

Will update again later..k?

Love,
Nana


*Love made you feel guilty when you are not in contact with your loved ones*

Appreciation..

Whoaa~ It's been a while I guess..Got lotsa things to share but just dont really know how to put in words..They were all inside me..buried deep inside my heart..

Since I create the blog to speak up myself..so i should write something, no? and let em out free..no?hehehe

Now, what is appreciation?? well, just searched on the net for the proper meaning..it's a way of recognition and one's value,quality etc etc..

why do i want to write about appreciation then? hurm..well..guess i wasnt being appreciated or i saw people's work were not really recognized by the boss? or for other reasons? I dont know..but this whole thing has been on my mind since ages..n it sometimes makes me feel sad..and down..

I believe it's not easy to appreciate people or things surround us..usually, the appreciation awareness comes after we already lost/might lost all those people/things..right? why does that happen that way? <-this part makes me sad..

For example; a family...where both parents dont have time to take care of their children..i mean they dont hv that much time spent for their children..at first, the children still stick around..but what will happen if that goes on for years n years..will they permanently stick around? NO,right? it's like you loosely hold a thing and you dont care so much of the bond btwn you and that thing..sooner or later the bond will be more loose and at one point you no longer hold it without you even notice it's already gone..right? the same goes with people..if we dont really hold on to them..they will just go or disappear..

the worst part is..when they go/disappear..thats when we start to search for them again in the hope they will stay forever again..and when they stay..we tend to forget them again..and when they want to go..we try to search for them again..and that goes on and on..we just dont know when to stop, do we? HAHAHAHA~

As for myself, I'll try my best to appreciate things around me because ive been in the situation where I lost a person who is soooo precious to me and couldnt hold onto that person anymore..until now..and i truly regret that though good things came out of that..but losing that person caused a big change in my life..and  i promised to myself to try to appreciate things around me the best possible so that i wont regret in the future if i were to lose things once again..for at least, ive done the best for him/her..

but..im a normal human being..if people dont appreciate me..i'll feel sad.. :_( if it happened once..or twice..or three times..it's acceptable..but if it happened all the time..what does that really mean? Im speechless..lost my words..


*Hold on to people we love and care because when they are gone, they are gone....*

syg org yg syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt syg..

been a while xcte kat sini..bz ngn production..huhu~

yeap..true...org slalu ckp...klo nk berpsgan..biarlah bersm ngn org yg btol2 syg kat kt..bkn org yg kt btol2 syg..specially pmpn la..knape?sbb perasaan terhegeh2 tu sgt menyakitkn n rs cm pathetic giler..rs sdh sgtttttt..susah nye nk pujuk diri n bg die dgr n sedar..org tu xnk sgt pn kat die..die je yg terhegeh2..

pdhal org tu xde pape sgt..xde pape yg bole bg kat die..tp np die syg sgt..np die syg sgt kat org tu..bkn die xle jd independent..kdg2..rs jeles tgk org2 yg bhgie berpsgn..terdetik..seronoknye ek jmpe ngn soulmate kt..yg buat kt rs secure..buat kt rs di appreciate..

kdg2..terpk jugak..when it comes to love..i have to go through the hard way..or is it just me..who likes to choose the hard way..?before this..i prayed hard i wont fall for anybody..but at last i fall for him..not knowing he wudnt really appreciate me in the future..sdhnye rs..or..mgkn aku seniri yg xreti appreciate org..sbb tu org xappreciate aku..or mgkn aku xdpt terime baek buruk org?mgkn aku nkkn yg perfect?

aku rs x..ckpla klo die buat aku rs secure..n appreciate aku seadenye..

nk sgt lpskn die..tp syg sgt kat die..xfhm..xfhm...n sdh sgt..



*why does love hurts so much?*

lirik lagu trust you by yuna itou XD

TRUST YOU - YUNA ITOU

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni

ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni

kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni

naze hito ha kizutsukeau no

naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,

rain moistens the Earth…

If everyone in this world want to live together,

why do they hurt each other?

Why do they separate?

kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada

itsumo kono kokoro mannaka

ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama

dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni

itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara

shiniteru yo mata aeru to

I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still

be in my heart.

With that tender smile, I get buried and

held in a fragment of you…

Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,

I believe we’ll meet one again.

I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,

so don’t let go.

sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no

tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no

ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo

shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii

sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?

Who informed us of the Journey’s End?

I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,

I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in

because a light is waiting for you.

kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha

ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka

ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru

afureru kimochi no shizuku ga

atatakaku hoho tsutau

tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to

I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me

still lies within my heart.

Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.

The fragment of my overflowing emotions

streak down my warm cheeks.

I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.

I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga

I love you, I trust you

ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you

for you, I shed these tears.

I love you, I trust you

you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you.

Waiting for you love,

always by your side,

you’re the one that I love,

you’re the one that I trust,

you’re the only one.

I love you, I trust you

kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii

I love you, I trust you

hikari demo yami demo

I love you, I trust you

kanashimi demo yorokobi demo

I love you, I trust you

kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you

I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.

I love you, I trust you

be it in light or darkness.

I love you, I trust you

be it sadness or happiness.

I love you, I trust you

I want to protect your everything.

donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo

soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no

hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,

I’ll be with you because we trust each other…

Don’t let go.

*yes..i love you too*