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*Human feeling is unpredictable*

Appreciation..

Whoaa~ It's been a while I guess..Got lotsa things to share but just dont really know how to put in words..They were all inside me..buried deep inside my heart..

Since I create the blog to speak up myself..so i should write something, no? and let em out free..no?hehehe

Now, what is appreciation?? well, just searched on the net for the proper meaning..it's a way of recognition and one's value,quality etc etc..

why do i want to write about appreciation then? hurm..well..guess i wasnt being appreciated or i saw people's work were not really recognized by the boss? or for other reasons? I dont know..but this whole thing has been on my mind since ages..n it sometimes makes me feel sad..and down..

I believe it's not easy to appreciate people or things surround us..usually, the appreciation awareness comes after we already lost/might lost all those people/things..right? why does that happen that way? <-this part makes me sad..

For example; a family...where both parents dont have time to take care of their children..i mean they dont hv that much time spent for their children..at first, the children still stick around..but what will happen if that goes on for years n years..will they permanently stick around? NO,right? it's like you loosely hold a thing and you dont care so much of the bond btwn you and that thing..sooner or later the bond will be more loose and at one point you no longer hold it without you even notice it's already gone..right? the same goes with people..if we dont really hold on to them..they will just go or disappear..

the worst part is..when they go/disappear..thats when we start to search for them again in the hope they will stay forever again..and when they stay..we tend to forget them again..and when they want to go..we try to search for them again..and that goes on and on..we just dont know when to stop, do we? HAHAHAHA~

As for myself, I'll try my best to appreciate things around me because ive been in the situation where I lost a person who is soooo precious to me and couldnt hold onto that person anymore..until now..and i truly regret that though good things came out of that..but losing that person caused a big change in my life..and  i promised to myself to try to appreciate things around me the best possible so that i wont regret in the future if i were to lose things once again..for at least, ive done the best for him/her..

but..im a normal human being..if people dont appreciate me..i'll feel sad.. :_( if it happened once..or twice..or three times..it's acceptable..but if it happened all the time..what does that really mean? Im speechless..lost my words..


*Hold on to people we love and care because when they are gone, they are gone....*

Insidious 2011

Phewwww~~~ just mentioning the title, my heart beats faster..hahahhaa~ salah2..tu exagerate je tu..huahuahua~

hurm..have you watched insidious?

i have! hahaha..actually, i dont plan on watching this movie but at that time, i didnt really have a choice (hurm..nothing to watch but still wanted to,aite?ngong tol~)..thought this movie is so-so..but i think it's kinda good movie..the plot is unpredictable..the ending too..damn nice!! hahhaa..i love movies that i cant predict whats gonna happen next..so, it's like i hv to wait till the end to know the whole plot..interesting, aite?

so..what it is all about? it's about a family..moving to a new house..then they were disturbed by a spirit..their son fallen into comma because of that..(because of that ke?huahuahua) they thought it was the house then they moved to another house..they were disturbed again..bla bla bla..the suspense part of the movie was exciting!

go and watch it!!



*Always have a faith on your loved ones..*

My best friend's wedding

hurm...it's been a while i didnt update anything here..actually i didnt really hv anything to share..but basically was not really in the mood to share anything...duhhh

thought i did say i will share on my best fren's wedding, dla..

shes one of my best frens from my high school..there were 11 of us..ramai kn?hehehe..n shes the first to get married..only 2 of us have boyfriend while another 8 are still singles..so, if anybody wishes to get to know em..just let me know k..they may not be pretty enough for you (they r beautiful in my eyes though) but they have gorgeous hearts ya know..hehehe promote plak..

ok anyway, dla was married to one of our schoolmates..hurm..to be exact my ex-classmate..hehe..they were frens at first..a gd frens..turns out the guy likes her..thank Allah she met a nice man who cares about her a lot and willing to do anything for her..yeap..i knew it..hehehe~

let's enjoy the pics k..

 this is an Indonesian style wedding..

 there were only 8 of us..1 has gone home..another 1 was at sabah and couldnt attend the wedding..huhu..

hehe..the wedding was awesome!! and we had a great time together! its not easy to gather all of us in one place since everybody is busy with works..meeting them is really amazing..


credit picture to khairulhafiz.net



*A best friend is someone who always cry and laugh with us*

A wedding card...

Hurm..have nothing to write actually..hahaha~

but wish to share about a wedding card..

A wedding card is a formal invitation to our wedding..thats my belief.. Nowadays, having a fb..people start to forget the importance of a wedding card..most of them feel like inviting through an app on the fb is enough..

However, I have this one kind of belief by which..if you dont invite them using a card, it's like u dont have any intention to invite them at all..it's only for the sake of inviting..if not, u'll feel guilty..

some might think im somewhat an ego person..but i think i have my own stand..even i myself..if i were going to get marry later..i will only give cards to the people who i really want to invite..in other way, i dont invite people who dont receive my cards..thats all..it's not that im bad for not inviting them..but i have my own budget..and im not a rich people..so,i'll invite who are close to me only..who always cheer me up when i was down..who are my true friends..no?

now, im in the dilemma of whom am i going to invite then..cuz i have so many friends..duhhh...but i already have a list of people who i will not invite for my wedding..hahaha~ yeah..im a bad person..whats wrong with that..?it's a matter of my own choice and my wedding is a private event to me..plus im not even a public figure to invite all people..no?haha~

somehow, some people might get hurt if you dont invite them..hope i'll choose the right person to invite..insyaallah..

omg! i love this card!! it's simple but nice!!

photo credit to paperthrill




*it's sick to see how a tradition is started to fade away*

Jar of Hearts...

Currently, I am in love with this song;

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri..

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

credit lyrics to metrolyrics


*some people just dont understand the essentials of appreciating people*

A supporter...

Today I almost cried...too many things to handle but too little time..why? one of my colleagues aka my teammate just resigned few weeks ago...actually there were only two of us in the team yet we called it a team??? hahha! yes! it's a team..we dont really get well the first time..i dunno him..he didnt know me..but guess i tried the best possible so that we could work together..i dislike him at first..i thought hes not responsible..cuz he always left me doing the operations/works alone..hahaha! ye die kejam!

but soon we get along so well..specifically after he get married...he changed a lot! n i liked him dat way..easy for me to get the job done..he loved discussion..n we did a lot of discussions n we learned a lot too!! yeap two people..better ideas...but i thanked his wife..cuz i think she contributed a lot to the changes he made..

but now...i am all alone..n today i had an argument..i was so tired..i couldnt think right..and i didnt understand what was the argument was about...at that time..i thought of him the most..i almost cried..cuz i feel like i dont have anybody to support me whenever the process didnt go right..he was always the supporter when things didnt go well..at least, i know both of us will be blamed..and hes a superior to me..so,i didnt feel that much of tense..last time, when i get so worried..he will like 'relax nana...xde pape la..relax je..' so i could quite relax cuz i thought i have a supporter n i didnt feel alone..

now that i need to think of everything on my own..adding up new works..it's all jumbled up..i couldnt organize it very well..i easily forgot things that need to be done..feel like im in a total mess!

when he was leaving..i didnt really show that it affected me that much..i tried to be strong..cuz he claimed that i am tough..i can do everyhing..hahahha! yeap i was happy he said that..but now, guess i started to miss him..to have all kind of discussion..changing thoughts..having a lot of arguments..at least i was comfortable having discussion with him..

and he still helps me up until now...

Dear Friend,

I guess I started to miss you..you know what i meant right..it's pretty sad being alone you know..it's somewhat hard to ask ppl to help..not because they dont want to help..but because they are not really in the team..it makes me feel awkward and guilty asking them to stay back..to work during the weekend..and all..

(just received a msg from you..haha..regarding RO..) now i just lost my words...ko mmg potong stim tau...hahahha!abes lupe sume dh...

But anyway, you are also the best teammate ever yet..n im glad i know you..before and after you changed..hehehhe...thank you for all your supports and for the knowledge shared..even though sometimes i easily get confused with so much information from you..but i really appreciated that..thank you for being positive all the time..i got the energy if you want to know..since i easily get worried over something..even it's small..thank you for everything....

I hope you'll be successful in your life..May Allah bless you with nice kids and a happy life...InsyaAllah..

Your friend,

Nana

I know you read this..if you read this, this is all end here...dont brag about me being this sentimental in front of anybody..specially myself..hahaha! if you do, i will never see you again! huh!

I have a picture of him but couldnt remember where i kept it..so, i'll put it later...as always..hahahha~ *sy mmg pemalas nk cr2 n selongkar merate2 wlopn dlm computer je...sgt malas~*

*it's a bless from Allah to be able to meet good people..*